Broken Down

It has been a struggling start for me right out of High School. No more than 2 days after my graduation I was emitted to the hospital with, at the time, an unbearable, non-stopping pain where the source was unknown. After about 24 days being in the hospital did they finally figure out what it was, but in order to rid of it, I had to undergo major surgery that required one more week stay.

After finally being released from 31 days being bed-ridden was I finally able to start my summer, July 1st. Thought I was done with stress only to find out that I needed to be focused on making sure I could get to college. As the first day of college neared, the more worried of how I might be unprepared for it. However, I refused to not go this fall and go the following year. I would not let the past problems keep me from an education.

Well, college began. Winthrop University. I was nervous, excited, any and all of the emotions that usually hit a freshman at this time in their lives. Getting ready to complete my first day of classes, I find out that my classes were dropped due to finances. Confused I went to the Financial Aid department to find out the cause. For some reason, FAFSA did not have our aid request signed. All I could think then was, "Ugh, these problems never stop do they?" Luckily for me I was able to solve all of the problems to finally "start" college.

Well, now its going on the 4th month, and I still have problems I'm facing. I for one, am struggling with grades trying to keep my scholarship (prolly not going to anyway). Second, I find myself lonely, searching for a companion. I have always been that person who was willing to listen, give whatever advise I could give, and just be there for that person when all along, I needed some help of my own.

I don't know what to do. I need help. I feel broken down with all of this stress, it's getting really hard for me to keep my composure. I don't want to stop being able to help others, but at this rate, I don't know how long I can last.